H.D. Thoreau is mah G

So today began with a ridiculously early wake up time (at least for here) at about 630 as we went on our tiyul to some ancient arab village made in the judean hills. The first half of the day was basically just an overdose of nature, which I most surely welcome with open arms. We walked to the site from the kibbutz and made our way through the mostly barren terraces, that once bore volumes of fruit this past season. The hiking was tough, especially in my non-hiking boots and jeans. God, I was unprepared. Regardless, it was great fun walking through history and all, even if I did sweat profusely.

I think I'm finally getting into the swing of things. I've established the minimum amount of close friends in order to feel comfortable, but of course I'd prefer to make more to diversify my assets. I just fear, like i said before, of suffocating certain people by hanging around them too much. But overall, I've built up a pretty stable social situation, but I keep comparing it to other people's relationships that are much more touchy-feely and closer. And I know I shouldn't be jealous or covet my neighbors things but sometimes I put myself down by comparing things in my life to those in other people's. But sometimes I have to believe that. That my life lacks compared to others'. And I just can't take that for some reason.But I know that I need to live my own life in my own way and so on and so forth blah blah blah but its much easier said than done.