The Final Stretch

So only three weeks left. I honestly can't imagine life not on EIE anymore, its too distant, too scary a thought. I don't have nearly as much a social life at home than I do here; at home I'm basically that smart kid, but here people actually like me for who I am, and I know that sound cliche and cheesy, but its true. I feel accepted here (most of the time), which is completely different at home where I feel like a nobody, where I am a nobody. But I have to face the facts, and make thee next three weeks last as long as possible, make the most out of each day, each hour, each second. As time lessens, things become more urgent, more sad, more fun. But life goes on, and it goes on well. Luckily, I've managed a study plan for my AP's so everything is organized and I am virtually stress-less. Except for coming home. I don't know how I'm going to deal. I'm going to talk to these people often, I hope, but even if I do vidchat, its not the same. And I wont be able to wait until reunions or until someone comes here or me there. Luckily, there are several people that live near me, so that will keep me occupied, hopefully. But I have to face the fact that all things must pass, and that every dog has its day, and my day is in its final hours, perhaps.
But otherwise, things are very well, but I have this nagging feeling that something really amazing has yet to happen, but that may just be this whole journey altogether. Its more that I want something singular and amazing to happen, rather than actually excpecting it to happen. Things with school suck balls, I'm loaded with homework and AP studying, and finals and final projects, in addition to having to hang out with people, which I've deemed a priority, above some of my studies. It's bogging me down, but I'm determined to not let it affect me too much, not let it over stress me (because some stress is necessary to have motivation), and not let it define me. The teachers here, I've concluded with the input of others, are terrible teachers, but perfectly fine people, or at least some of them are. It's funny sometimes, but the rest of the time its just a nusance.
But things are good, once again. The girl I talked about last time and I have been hanging out more (at least over last weekend in Tel Aviv). Our group went to Tel Aviv for the weekend, and for friday night we went to the local reform synagogue, which happened to be originally funded, as well as the hostel we were staying at (which was very nice), by a family with the same last name as me, but I'm not sure if I was related to them. It gave me good material to tell people that they were my Aunt and Uncle, though. So friday night I dressed in my suit again, and of course people were very responsive to it, and there are some pictures from it on fbook, if you so care to look. But I have a shitton of stuff to do, so this post wont be as long, and it also explains my two week absence on theis blog, which I sincerely apologize. But in Tel Aviv I hung out with the girl I talked about last time, a friend of F's, who I will call L. We talked a lot and walked to the beach together (from the hostel to the beach is about a 20 minute walk) that night, and the following day we went to the beach again and hung out there with her and that group of four girls that include F and L. One of the other girls likes me a lot, but has a boyfriend. She told me to tell him to be more like me. Really. That's another huge boost of confidence right there, but since we hold hands often and she hugs me, I get nervous about her boyfriend seeing. And personally, I dont think he's the nicest person and can't see why she's dating him. But I'm sure there's something between them that I don't detect. But I really like L and there's this ease of talking between us, as opposed to F. I was friends with her before recently, but I believe it started when she sat next to me or I sat next to her (I forget) at an outdoor dinner for one of the bug Israeli holidays. And from there we've hung out and talked more. We also had this huge bonfire for this holiday called Lag B'Omer, which celebrates the day none of Rabbi Akiva's students died during some plague. Some holiday. But Israel is very festive about it and everyone goes to bonfires and eats food together, etc. We had one on the kibbutz last night and it was very fun, but the fire almost burned my face off it was so hot. Anyway, I conversed with this other girl, and before during the day and in recent weeks more and more (not really in any romantic way) and she became one of my wives. The other two I talk to, but not as much as her. I don't want to say I like her the best because I like all my wives equally ( I actually do) but sometimes they want me to say it. It's not a big deal, but I just say that I like everyone equally. Which isn't completely true, but I don't want people to hear that I like some over others. At the bonfire though, me and L hid in the bushes in order to scare some people because it was dark at the entrance to the field where the bonfire was. We did manage to scare some people, and it was very funny and entertaining, and we mostly stuck around each other for the 30 minutes we were there. That might not be correct, but I forget how long I was there for. But the time I was there with L was after I had already gone and left the bonfire because it got boring, but as I was walking out I saw L and her friends coming, so I joined. Yeah, I did make a compromise.
But things are good. My roommates have been fighting over some stupid things, and sometimes its very funny because they are faked but seem real because two of the people actually hate each other. So there's that. People also have been burning stuff lately, and its stinkign up the rooms, which sucks. OH. last week I beleive my roommate decided it woudl be funny to shit in a bag and out it in someone's room. We had this whole speech about it by our principal with everyone on the program, but they way he described the scenario was very funny and a bit awkward. Some peopel laughed and it offended him, and then proceeded to comment that American youth culture has morally declined, according to all the movies he watches. Because you know, when you watch movies, you automatically become an expert on its audience. Anywhosits, school is winding down, but the terrible thing is that the time when you have to hang out with the people the most often, you need to study for AP's and finals. Damn coincidence.
Well, I must go, seeing as I have a million things to do. I dont knwo when Ill write back, but Im hoping at least twice before this trip is over. Will I continue this blog after? Probably not, seeing as my life will be much more uneventful and the title of this blog wont apply. But it will always be here to reminice.