So things are improving. Or have improved. It's hard to tell the progress as of now. My mood has greatly increased over the past week, for several reasons. One, social stuff has vastly improved for one reason or another, perhaps since I told myself I needed to be in a better mood, which would allow me to exude an air of confidence, which is attractive. Second, school is almost our for three weeks, but I still had midterms and still have one big midterm in the class I am furthest behind in. Shit. (UPDATE) I took the midterm, I bombed. I suck. The end. Also, my family came all together, so that was nice, but mainly it allowed me to appreciate how glad I am to be away from them. I like them, but sometimes I feel like I'm the parent and have to direct my parents to do what should be done. Like when they're driving in Jerusalem, they have no idea what theyre doing, and me or my sisters have to direct them. But they brought me food and a really shitty ipod. Which is great because its better than a completely broken ipod, which was my situation. The battery life is shit and I cant put songs on it normally, but its music, and I should be thankful. Im doing all sorts of things in order to make it work.
But what was so weird and so funny was that the night I decided to go out for dinner with my aprents to this amazing restaurant called "Karma", guess who was there too. Z and her family and some of her friends from the program. What was embarassing was that when I was introducing the people on my program to my sisters, I forgot momentarily one of their names, but quickly remembered, but now I feel terrible. Oh well.
And guess what else. My parents know Z's parents. WEIRD. But not so much because I've pretty
gotten over her, and am now focused on F.
My Dad also spoke about the Holocaust on thursday night, which was well received, many people coming up to me saying my dad was cute and things of that nature. I like it when he tells his story and I think he likes that I take an interest in it too.
But things with F have improverd within the last couple days. She seems more accepting of me and cheerful, we've talked more and hung out more, and I think things are going pretty strong, except for the fact that I dont see her that much because we arent in the same group (of three).
But one night was when I was supposed to help her with math homework or something, and if you have any sense in your head, that usually means something related to a very different kind of math. But that night I started by doing some long program for our Poland trip, then I had to help this other girl with her math homework, which I actually did, but nothing "special" came out of it. I kind of like her, and I think she kind of likes me, but I'm going more for F. Dont get me wrong, I like this girl a lot, except F is just more appealing personally. And then I had to practice on my mandolin with others for this yiddish song I was performing in class. It went well, but took up a lot of time. I than had to go to the twins' in our group's birthday thing, which took up a chunk of time, and finally I went to F's room, where lo and behold, were many other people lounging around. I liek these people, but I was hoping it could be more intimate and personal, but I can deal. It still turned out well and I think I may have impressed her with my mandolin skills. Maybe. Anyways, maybe Poland/Yam L'Yam (a huge hike across the country from sea to sea (galilee to med.) will provide an opportunity, but we are often seperated into groups, so I dont know how often I will be able to see her, That is the main problem. Is having time to be around her, but I'll manage,
Anyway, I shoudl really be preparing fo rPoland right now, seeing as I have 22 minutes to do a whole heck of a lot of stuff, but I'll finish this quickly becuase I owe you guys and entry before I am discommunicated for two and half weeks or so. So I'll report with MANY things as I'm keeping a journal so I dont forget any important reflections/thoughts. So wish me luck and I really have to be going now, but overall things with girls are slowly improving, my mood is elevated ( i dont know what the concentrations camps liek Aushwitz will do to me) OK BYE. I REALLY NEED TO GO AHHHHH
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